unpredictable journal

31 August 2006

Morning dude! By right should be leaving home to school. But I overslept, and I showered for too long, that's why when I came out from the bathroom is already 7.15am. Is too late for 8am class. JJ sms me telling me that she won't be coming, so sad. Sobb. Anyway, Mrs Tan won't be teaching either. Revision period 'd be more like clearing doubts eh? Haa... for what go there an hour and take 1.5hours to travel back home when I had already gotten majority answer for those revision papers? For some that I didn't manage to get, perhaps... crack my brain a lil' more harder, perhaps.. I might just find all solu myself. Hur...

These few nights, I was feeling very terrible. Bad cough, flu, dry throat, feverish forehead. One good thing is that no headache. =) On the other hand, I seriously very worried for her. I wish I'd share it with some friends of her's so that see if we can help her together instead of me alone. Cuz there isn't anything that I could do to help. Hmm... perhaps, she just want to find someone to share out her problems bahs. Sigh...

I was so shocked to see mom changed for work. I thought she forgotten that today's a Thursday. Then I quickly went to ask her and she said that she'll only be having off day next Thursday. Frightened. My mom already old, and she tends to forget things easily. That's why. So not going out later, good I can have long day of revision later. Typing emails to friends, to share my problem. Hee..

I hope I'll luv myself more

07:43

30 August 2006

Yesterday evening was having fever, but feeling better after mummy bought congee for my dinner. Received good friend, JJ sms asking if I can accompany her out. Of course, i'll never turn anyone of you down when you needed somebody the most. Didn't let my mummy know that I'm going out, because she'll be very worried sick for me especially when I'm still running fever. Manage to sneak out of house only at mid-night, 12am. Sigh... took a cabby down to orchard town and look for her. Happy, know why? Cuz I picked up 2bucks, which mean I only pay for 15bucks for the cabby fare.

Reached, she brought me to Jane thai ... her mummy shop to eat. The food there were super duper nice. But I can't eat too much, cuz still feeling sick mah. Hurhur... her mummy was friendly and easy to get along. Alright, after that, we chatted infront of mc cafe. Met a stranger, his behaviour very weird so we walked back to her mummy shop and take drink. Sat at the carpark, right beside her mummy family car and waiting for her mummy to close shop.

Went to her house met her black big doggie. And her paws scratches my leg. Sobbiex, is now black bruise. Went up to her room, and we chatted the night away. We chat about our 3lecturers, our kakis (Mic, Hau, Doreen and Valencia), the twins and boss (F'rick, H'rick and JP) and of course can't miss out kakis boyfriend and admires, oh that includes mine. Haa... was a well spent night with her.

Now I hope everything's gonna be fine for her. Leaving those unpleasant memories behind. And hope that *** **** **** * ****** ***. } content can't be disclose. Is the secret between she and me. We tucked in at 6am. Haa... and I woke up at 8am due to the super duper cold air con right on top of me. So cold till my stomach pain.

Had my breakfast with her at clementi mac, she wanna treat me. But come on, i'll never let her treat me for such a cosy breakfast. Unless is roti prata. =)

Promised her to go for taxation class later. So m off to shower! So sweet of her to sms me telling me that she bought me a heabal tea, don't wanna me to get sick. I hope she gotten herself one as well. Cuz she woke up with a bad cold too. It might due to the bacteria that I spreaded to her or it might due to the super duper cold air con. Haa...

Update

Was having doubt about recontracting my internet yet I've couldn't reach any of the CS help hotline. Fuck. That's why I'm late for taxation class. Today Mrs Tan rewarded everyone of us with cash vourchers. 6 sets of revision questions and yepp I just finished all. Then mummy starts to nag even when the clock in the room stop moving. Hell... everything also wanna nag. Sigh...

Anyway, m back to work on Friday. Tomorrow maybe going out with my mummy since is her off day.

Don't feel like going for taxation class, cuz I had already finished up all revision. For what I go? But for the sake of her, just to accompany her. Hopefully I can wake up on time norhx. Nighty.

I hope I'll luv myself more

11:14

29 August 2006

Feeling so sick to go school this morning, but still I went. Cuz revision period, must be lots of revision, but again it don't seems to be.

Actually didn't want to fetch my lil' niece up, but looking at the weather, it might rain at anytime. Brought her to the playground and she stepped on something, skin torn. Then mummy was saying: "If I didn't fetch her up, she couldn't be injured." and I went o.O huh?!! My fault? When I don't fetch her, you would say what kind of aunt I'm. When I fetch her, and something happened, you blame me for it. Fuck... ~

Gonna take a nap, cuz head really pain.

I hope I'll luv myself more

17:08

28 August 2006

Couldn't make it on time for costing lesson this morning, so missed my costing class. Went for lecture. Glad that formulae that I memorised still in my brain, heh*2. But was rather careless, computed 2 of it wrongly. But is just a test. =) After that, the head starts to pain again. Until my eye brown frowned when Valencia called me. So p.s pretty. Accounting class, cannot stand the pain eat pandadol also no use, nearly fainted when I reached JP. Quickly get a sweet drink, feeling whole lots better. Perhaps... blood pressure too low again. Haa, doctor once advice me to eat more sweet stuffs when I feel giddy. It helps, it really does. Went to help mummy pay bills, and get my ink refills, hopefully it last me till I graduate.

Chatted with mummy the whole afternoon. Never know that mummy always get beaten by grandpa and grandma. They uses cane and wood to beat mummy, mummy so poor thing. Sigh... remind me lots of stuffs.

Anyway, m feeling so feverish, I'm feeling so warm, so heaty. I feel like sleeping, which means m falling sick soon. I really do hope, I can 've diarrhoea and vomit out asap. At least i'll feel better. Haa...

Lil' niece came back and I overheard her asking her granny: "Where's ah yi". Granny replied: "Ah yi working" and she said: "Don't want". Haa... cannot stand her, came back home so talkative. The whole house, all her voices. Hees

I hope I'll luv myself more

17:27

27 August 2006

Think I'm feeling a lil' unwell, that's why slept until 1.30pm. Yesterday while memorising Accounting Ratio Formulae, I ate up entire big pack of Corntos. End up getting myself another ulcer, under my tongue. Pain ~ Now throat feeling itchy, think falling sick soon. But it helps me in memorising majority of the formulaes. Whew ~

Have to do revision later, sians.

Just now ask mummy whether jie jie wear my comic shirt back home or not. She replied back that she didn't change any shirt over here recently. Commented, everyday only wanna wear that shirt, I was about to throw it away, so many years already. Haa... cannot throw it away, cuz I can't find this kind of comic shirt any more. That time saw one at night market, but mummy say was too big for me, don't buy. Sobb.

Was doing revision in the kitchen, and saw a small butterfly. I was so panicked and packed all my books and screamed mummy ~ brother thought what happened to me. Haa... daddy saw my bloggies pictures, asking whether my page can put up his photo or not. A... can but the problem is I do not have your picture in the computer. Haa...

Having slight headache after 5hours of revision.

I hope I'll luv myself more

13:31

26 August 2006

Haven't been blogging for days.

Thursday finished class at 12pm, went out with school girls to ECP. Heh*2 was fun, watching kakis Mic learning cycling was like a piece of cake to her. She's a fast learner, no wonder she got her licence without failing any stage except final theory. Whew! Heard that Valencia is taking her licence too, good luck pretty! And JJ way to go as well.

Headed to Golden for steamboat dinner. Was a standardize portion of ingredients with 8bucks of chicken. Hmm... sad to say I only like the hai nan ji fan, it was so tasty. Next location was BJ to take pix pix... heh*2 and then headed back home. Reached home at 8pm, was so tiring and relunctant to do revision. But still I did it till 12am plus.

Friday having additional class at 8am but I reached at 9am? Kinda bored, cuz lecture going through the very first set of revision paper that she gave us a about a week ago. More worse, she only giving out new revision when we're going for the BGR talk. So I was doing the revision paper during the talk, haa... anyway, the talk was pretty interesting. I could tell that my kakis were listening attentively and enjoyed themselves.

During accounting class, in the very last min of lesson, I completed all my revision paper and hand in to her. Hopefully by Monday, I'm able to get back all my papers.

By right this morning (saturday) should be having breakfast with my sister. Wake up at 8am bath, and waiting for her call. But she didn't. Haa... I knew why... cuz she didn't bring Pearlyn to school. Sigh, at least should have send me a notification right? Forget it, not the first time. =)

Kai Zi came over to fix my stupid internet connection. She tried n tried for many times, about 1hour 30mins and finally fixed. Thanks pretty! Buy you dinner when you're free eh?

Alright... should go and continue my revision lers. Hees.

Take kaiire everyone.

Back: Valencia, Doreen

Front (L-R) : JJ, Mic, Hau and me.

I hope I'll luv myself more

14:05

23 August 2006

Is just only one day of leave that I requested for, that's tomorrow. But why must you wait for the very last min telling me that I can have the entire week off? If my sales is really that unsatisfactory, why not you might as well set me? Fuck... out of so many part-time job I've worked before, I'd say that this was the very first unhappy job that I've ever work. What do you want exactly? Please tell me straight by all possible ways, sms or call. I have no idea how do you get a designation of Sales Promoter Manager when you've no sense of responsibility.

Is about one year we've not been contacting one another, and you still trying to locate me, that's the very happy thing to know about. I hope we'd meet up soon.

F***er, my mood was so down that I can't even bother to take a look at all the revision that I'm left with.

-Depressed

I hope I'll luv myself more

20:54

22 August 2006

Overslept this morning so missed my taxation lecture. Went for costing lesson, communication breakdown, so frustrated. Didn't have my lunch, perhaps... no appetite. Bought cheese fries plan to eat it during accounting lesson but was too busy to eat. Having lots of laughter while doing accounting revision paper, happy.

On my way back home or rather journey to fetch my lil' niece I saw this hunk who looks so resemble with one of my OF. He was standing infront of me and I feel so p.s to say excuse me and get down of the bus when it reached. When the bus reached my sis house, he sat down and I alight. Haa... walked a short distance to my niece childcare and picked her back home.

Help! My niece wanna kiss me, yucks! Haha..

I hope I'll luv myself more

17:48

21 August 2006

Was pretty tiring after reaching home from dinner. Washed up and did a lil' revision before turning in. In the mid-night having a very bad cold and too reluctant to get out of bed to get my medicine. Sneezing non-stop till it feels a lil' better, doze off soon after that. After awhile, gastric kinda pain, couldn't sleep, couldn't get up either. Gastric might due to one meal (bread) / day for the past few days. Cuz mummy didn't cook and m lazy enough to buy my own dinner. Beside m not hungry =) When all the flu and gastric came that make me so sick, I just cried out in the middle of the night thinking how nice to have you taking care of me, bringing me medicine when I neeeds. Just like the day I went over to your place. Everything now is just memories that I can only think about it.

(Ni zui jing bu shuo hua, zhe me le, wei she me.

Shi bu shi you zhe me shi rang ni bu kuai le.

Ting shuo ni zui jing hen gu dan, you dian luan, you dian huang.

Ke shi wo que bu neng kou zai ni de sheng pang.

Ni xiang yao de, wo que bu neng kou gei ni wo quan bu,

wo neng gei de, que you bu shi ni xiang yao yong you de.

Wo men bu shi he, bu xiang zai ren shu.

Hao ji ci wo men bao zhe pi ci dou shi xiang yao ku.

Xiang jie shi, zhe yang de yi jie dou zhi shi kai shi.

Wo jue de shi, sou you de yi jie zhao jiu yi jie su.

Bu xiang zai yue shu, bu yao zai tong ku

Xia yi ci hui you gen hao de qing lu) * 2

Ai wo que bu neng gou gei ni wo quan bu.

wo neng gei de, que you bu shi ni xiang yao yong you de.
Wo men bu shi he, bu xiang zai ren shu.
Hao ji ci wo men bao zhe pi ci dou shi xiang yao ku.
Xiang jie shi, zhe yang de yi jie dou zhi shi kai shi.
Wo jue de shi, sou you de yi jie zhao jiu yi jie su.
Bu xiang zai yue shu, bu yao zai tong ku
Xia yi ci hui you gen hao de qing lu

Zhe yi ci wo men dou neng hen xing fu.

I hope I'll luv myself more

16:24

20 August 2006

How silly of me to have bought 2 cans of beer and gulp it down while doing taxation revision after the fought with brother on Friday. Bought a pack of cigarette but didn't smoke, cuz can't find anyone to accompany me to smoke.

Yesterday morning jie jie called me at 9am asking me to accompany her eat breakfast. When she saw me, she asked what happened to me. Haa... I told her I fought with brother. She mocked at us, saying that both of us added together already 40years old, still fight? Pretty true eh? Have a nice breakfast with her, after which we headed back home. She talk about the other day when I left the mess with mom to clear up. I explained when I did that, and soon tears just burst out. I told her, I hate, I hate myself to do that to mom. I just wanna be a good girl, but I always failed. Argh... so silly of me to 've cried.

Met a granny when I was boarding bus to work yesterday. She was finding her way back to clementi. Haha, having a hard time communicating with her as I do not know how to speak teochew. So I accompanied her to take MRT till clementi and headed for work. I cheated on the hours, sshhh... I reached at 12.40 but I wrote, 12.30pm. I went to break for 40mins but I wrote I didn't go for break. Who cares? I think, my bad breath is getting worse... I don't feel like approaching customers any more. I simply love slacking around, chit chatting with Veron and Pauline aunties. Think I must really work hard, making effort to approach customer. Anyway, 2weeks pay they also wanna deduct my CPF, sigh. Just left with a lil' to spend, is not enough!!! Especially I wanna clear all the debts I owe.

-2 cans of tiger beer always reminded me of you

that night

and the very next day

how we argued

and end up, you slurp down my wanton noodle

I hope I'll luv myself more

11:09

18 August 2006

Mrs Sim revised the previous topic with us, manage to understand a lil' bit more about the topic. =) Headed to work, guess who I met? Joanna, the Lakerol promoter, she's back again. I was so elated. She was having a very bad flu, and I was so sad to know that her granny passed away at 7.10pm just now. So left work earlier. Reached home saw my lil' niece accompanied her for awhile and she went back home. Bought my mummy a moisturizer cream, introduced by Joanna, but mummy showed me a black face. Asking me why I buy it for. Sigh... I keep quiet, speechless, nothing to say. I bought it because a few days back she told me her hand cracked, very pain, and I've got no time to buy it for her till today. But she doens't seems to appreciate it. Nevermind, cuz I know mummy don't like me to waste money marh... =) (Fake smile)

Second brother wake up at 9.25 and showed attitude to me and mom saying that he has got bike lesson at 9.40pm. Then I asked him why never inform mom about it, at least she can wake you up. Faster go now... and he replied back with frustrated tone saying: "LAI BU JI LIAO LAH", he shouted at me. For what? M I the one who asked him to sleep? No right? For what he shouted at me... and so I replied back with: "Ownself overslept, still wanna show attitude" and he crushed up my sales file. FUCK!!! For what again? Can't afford for any driving lesson, then don't go. For what fucking hell reason you vent your anger on me. KNN, so I went up and beat him but he gave me a punch on my mouth, directly and that's why is bleeding. Haa... you call yourself a brother of mine? When you promised to pay the half of the internet bill for me, but failed. You don't even give me money yet I've been buying ice-cream, chocolate, tibits, VCD, SHE CDs, Shirt and lots more of things for you on your birthday or when I've extra money. Forget it, you even borrow money from me and you don't even clear the amount you owe me. FUCK... what a brother? Hey, you're my BIOLOGICAL BROTHER. Have you forgotten?

When I'm a kid, dad vent his anger on me by beating me up

When I'm a young adult, brother vent his anger on me by beating me up as well.

What am I to em in this family, venting bin? Haha... don't know... *tears...

What's more hurting when mom asked me to give in AGAIN. Cuz she afraid that dad blood pressure might goes up...

Who's there? Again no one... friends are not free. Haha... who to share my problem other than this blog? No one... haha... nevermind... cigarette and beer are what I craving for. Haha... don't try to stop me. I can't tolerate any more.

I hope I'll luv myself more

21:39

17 August 2006

Overslept for taxation class, mummy only wake me up at 7am. Sigh, like I said she always failed to remember what time I needs to wake up. Shower out still early so did my tax revision, but didn't manage to complete, cuz running late for costing class if I'm still at home. Thursday classroom aircon is always very cold, so decided to bring my freshbox jacket to school since adidas dumped into pail for washing. Was looking for the bag that come with the jacket, but couldn't find it. Went to the bathroom and asked my mom, she said she mixed all my paper bags with those in the store. Felt so frustrated that I wanted to shout at her not to touch my things. But I didn't. Went back to the store and still I couldn't find. Empty out all the paper bags, still didn't manage to find it. Sigh, so angry and I just left the mess in the living room, and m out for class.

I fucking hell hate doing this to her, but I even hate people touching my things w/o telling me. Moreover, my paper bags were NEATLY packed into one big paper bag of mine. Why must she itchy hand go and re-pack my things with those in the store (which is not mine) together? Is screwed up my day that I don't even feel like going to school. But thinking of it, staying at home would even make my blood boils.

So sweet of Valencia to have bought me chocolate waffle when I did told her I don't wanna anything for breakfast. Hees... manage to slurp up after costing lesson, which is my lunch. Heh*2, nice nice. Hmm, Mic gave us a free lift to tanah merah interchange. Wah, so envious of her. Haa... sales was pretty alright today. 2 customers bought 2 different hair colour each which means manage to sell 4hair dye. 5 customers bought 1 each. That's my sales. Hair treatment product didn't promote much, cuz i'm slacking. Hees. Alright, Veron aunt buy me tea-break, so pai sey. She paid for it, I think cost her 5bucks for that treat eh? Dinner, mummy bought me nasi lemak. Wah... finally 3meals/day. =)

My knee cap still bleeding... sigh.

I hope I'll luv myself more

22:20

16 August 2006

Yesterday, injured my knee cap when the bus make a turn, about 2cm cut. Didn't realised that it bleeds until I reached the doorstep of taxation lecture hall. Was wondering why there's blood stain on my school shoes, then took a look at my knee, then discovered it was bleeding non-stop. Luckily JJ gave me a plaster to stop the bleed. Nothing special in school happened and soon, school hours ended. Reached home, took a nap till 7pm wake up and accompanied my niece till 10pm+ when her parent fetched her back home. Then start doing my accounting homework as well as taxation till mid night, around 12am. Accompanied my brother to eat durian and we watched "Yu Le Bai Fen Bai" till 2am, then I went to sleep le. This morning nearly overslept, but m well-disciplined. Heh*2... slightly late for class. =) Extremely dislike accounting lecture, as well as my accounting lecturer, everyday nag nag nag non-stop until Geraldine even said: "Iyo, vexed up, this lecturer nag nag nag... " -.-" Hell, everyday chasing for previous topic homework, revision paper homework, teach new topic and homework for new topic. Hell, that's ALOT for us to absorb, especially me!

Taxation was fun, but again lots of revision to be completed. Way to go...

I hope I'll luv myself more

19:56

14 August 2006

Was early for school this morning. =) Anyway, lot of school work have to revise and catch up. Less than a month 'd be exam period, stressed up. Well, something happy to share about that 'll be my very first pay for working as a sales promoter. Whew, *01 dollar for working 2weeks, that's pretty much! Heh*2... but minus off all the debts...

Internet - 98bucks

Handphone - 90bucks

Mummy - 80bucks

Concession to be set aside for 24Aug - 53bucks

Girl stuffs to be purchased - 36bucks

Left with - 44bucks till end of month, sobs. = l Because I still owe my mom 200bucks. Returning to her when I get my 2nd pay out. Wondering when can I get my hair trimmed and rebond. N m seriously dying for either a new coloured hair / a blackie soft hair. So may god let me be rich soon.

Notify of collection of Bursary Cheque 'll 've to wait for a month for 'em to process. Aww~ a long way to go still. Sigh... running out of money. 24 Aug m taking an off day to really learn roller skate. May god bless me from less fall.

Alright, off to mug... night.

I hope I'll luv myself more

21:16

13 August 2006

I fucking hate people to rush me when I'm in the bathroom. More over, there's another one in the kitchen, but why can't they just use the kitchen bathroom instead? Fuck ~

Unsure whats e hell that my neck is so darn itchy that I can't stop scratching it. Hoping today 'll be a better sales. =)

Puke! Sales was as bad as yesterday. Even assistant watson manager also urge me to sell more. Again, I do not know the problem lies on me or customer. Hais whatever hell it's, I just feel so pressurized. If give me one more chance to choose location, I think I'll wanna choose town location bahs, afterall their sales are whole lots better

Tomorrow gonna stay back after accounting class to catch up costing. Maybe just about time to fetch lil' kiddo, I miss her nehx. Yesterday she called me and said: "Ah yi, I miss you ley ~ what time you coming back" Haha...

I hope I'll luv myself more

10:55

12 August 2006

Sales was as usual bad, think it won't be any better tomorrow as Sunday always reflected the louiest sales day. So I won't be pinning high hope. Just try my best to promoter as much as possible :)

Yesterday ate up one whole box of Halls (Black) sweet for dinner. Today ate up ferror rocher and kit kat. Hell, m craving for cigarette but don't wanna baby kino to accompany me to smoke out last night. Cuz she's trying very hard to quit, feel bad to ask her out to smoke. Haa, so end up craving for twisties yet brother ate up almost all, hell. Ate up tons of chocolate and end up having a bad headache now. -.-"

Friends, don't ask me why smoke. For people who know me well, they'll know that I'm good in nature. Only smoke occasionally or when stressed up. If one day I happens to become heavy smoker, 'll you people leave me? Where friend when I need 'em? Haha... nvm. Used to it lers. Hais.

I hope I'll luv myself more

21:42

11 August 2006

Overslept for costing class. Think this time round m far behind 'em. Hopefully I'll be able to catch up asap. Today was kinda suay, step into the store room kena said by watson manager about my shoes. Fcuk whatever it's, m just a promoter at your outlet, not a watson staff okies? Can't you bring a smile on your face? So what if you're strict? Hell. Have lunch with Linda (Watson staff) didn't know that she's married and even more surprisingly, a mother of 3kids aged 5,4 and 1. She shared lots of her things. Now I know she's a girl who dislike guys (just like me) and whoever guys wanna get to know her, pocket sure ended up a big hole. She's not cheating their feelings but testing 'em. She don't wanna 've a bf who feed her with money and not love. She wanna a bf who can survive with her together when they're poor. Such a weirdo girl, but she's definitely a nice girl to be with.

And for don't know what fucking hell reason that I told her about you when she asked if I've any guy (bf) and that's when she started to share more about her past.

Sales was as bad as yesterday. I do not know why even though the stock arrived. Sigh. Hope for a better sales tomorrow. Stucked on the train for 10mins plus, hell. Start engine and stop, keep repeating, until I nearly fall. Stupid malay guys laughted at me. Knn... reached interchange, waited for 10mins plus then the bus arrive, that's fucking hell long as compared to other days. Hais... why so suay?

-A bad day

I hope I'll luv myself more

22:51

10 August 2006

Didn't go for class this morning, is not that I overslept but I just find it too rush for me if there's class. Thought that I'd make it for the briefing, but I couldn't. So end up meet pretty at Orchard, waited for her an hour, well it's not her fault. I arrived earlier.

Sales was totally bad, no stock for me to push, wasn't motivated at all. Hopefully tomorrow 'll 've a better sales.

Tax result was 49/50 didn't know where went wrong. Anyway, hard work paid off. =)

I hope I'll luv myself more

23:33

Just checked my internet contract, contract gonna be due only on 15 Sept which is about one more month to go. That's pretty fast, by then I should be terminating the contract and sign up another cheap promotion plan. Now 512 is only at $29.95 but m paying $47.75 cuz that time I sign up, I thought is already at a offer price, but it's not. =( Iya, whatever it's... m tired.

I hope I'll luv myself more

01:09

09 August 2006

Have been doing revision since noon till now (5.15pm). Sigh, endless of homework to do. *Sob Tomorrow gonna take back Tax CAII result. Wah, thrilled. =) Anyway, won't be attending costing class s Ginny is giving briefing. Hopefully after that can go home norhx. Tired.

Tomorrow gonna be a tiring, pack and tight schedule for me. *Sob

Class at 8am at Simei

Briefing at 11am at Tanjong Pagar

Gotta get my timesheet stamped at Lot 1 after briefing

Gotta head to Ngee Ann to submit time sheet

After which 've to head to work

Knock off 've to help mom to pay utilities bills

Reach home 've to do homework, if any. Sigh...

Can I ask for a leave day?

I hope I'll luv myself more

17:20

08 August 2006

Was late for today's outing, but at least I informed 'em. Michelle overslept so she didn't go with us and end up both CH and I decided to cycle instead of learning roller skate. :) Kinda of suay today cuz my bicycle chain dropped out and we (Hau and I) 've no idea how to fix it. After a few mins, there're 4 army guys came over to help us. Haha... I kena suan, that guy asked how I cycle. -.-" So p.s. But thanks to 'em, hees.

After that went to eat pizza hut. Think their standard dropped. Not that nice as before. All of us were so full and feel like puking. Heh2, because of some communication breakdown, we were entitled for a 25% off for the next dine-in. *Wink

Next accompany JJ to IKEA to buy something and we headed to Queensway to shop around. Was looking for my puma track, but didn't saw the colour that I want. Anyway, doesn't matter.

Enjoyed.

I hope I'll luv myself more

20:55

Not much revision I've done cuz of that lil' kiddo who sticking to every min, sigh. End module exam is about one more month to go, so perhaps I'll have to find a place where I can study silently. Maybe my GP/PM mac bahs. Anyone keen to join me?

Later gonna wake up at 9am to prepare everything before heading to ECP. Whew! Gonna learn roller skate, hopefully I manage to at least walk on my own eh? Haven't decided whether wanna shower before heading for dinner or not. Iya, brain not functioning after 11pm, that's why need to wake up at 9am to think n pack my stuffs. =) After ECP think we'd be heading to town for dinner. Pizza? Unsure, not yet decided. I love you girl (Doreen) She sms-ed me "Gal, just now I called Ginny but she never pick up. So I sms her but she never reply. Tomorrow enjoy ok? Although I cannot go but I'll share the joy" So sweet of her, touched. :)

Alright, m off to rest. Happy Birthday to 080888 de CCH, my beloved junior.

Although I don't mention anything about you for the past few months, you're still remembered and missed by me. Hope you've cheered up, smile2.

I hope I'll luv myself more

00:41

07 August 2006

Yesterday night couldn't get to sleep until 2am+, but still manage to wake up on time myself. Started the day like a bear with a sore mood, why must you smoke near to the place where I placed my school uniform? You are aware that I've never ever like the smell of cigarette eh? Why m I always so petty? Why m I always so selfish? Why must I always act like a kid, behaving in a childish manner, throwing tantrum to let you know that I'm angry. Are you aware that I HATE to behave in this manner? I doubt. I doubt you know I'm mad with you. ;( Sobbiex`

I hate myself to get angry with you. As my new year resolution, I always stated that I wanna be a good girl. I wanna respect you more, I wanna treat you better. I wanna help you as much as I could. I wanna be independent. I tried, I tried to obey your instruction, I tried to do all things you asked me to do when I don't feel like. But that's what a daughter ought to do.

-Perhaps, you realised that I cried.

Tomorrow there gonna be a trip to ECP again. But Doreen can't make it, sigh. Out of few outing we organised, only one outing with all of ur present. Each time I went because of the sake of someone. I'm so tired, so tired to go out with school girls. =( Hope tml 'll be the last outing with em. For Wednesday, m gonna stay at home and catch up with all the school work. Way to go...

I hope I'll luv myself more

08:10

06 August 2006

2weeks of work has over and today I've the best sales of silk touch. Hitted 19silk touch which brought to another 13 over bucks. As for the treatment labo, only manage to sell 2 s the stock level is low. =( Hell, I forgotten to report the sales for the twins pack promotion that I sold. Aniw, for working 2weeks I earned 400 bucks. Which is enough for me to survive for one month eh? Haa... should be working harder for next week as I wanna take one week off during Sept as m having end-module paper. Way to go... =)

11.39pm, off m go off to mug... luckily Tue and Wed m not going for school. Should be catching up lot of school work eh? :)

I hope I'll luv myself more

23:37

I always failed to see the true colour of one and I always think that they're so wonderful just like an angel to me. By right m meeting Doreen at 11.30am at Expo Control but because I overslept and only able to reach there at 12pm so I sms-ed her. I asked her to report for work first since I'd be late, but she said is okay and she'll wait for me. Then I replied back with "okay, try not to be late." But guess what? She's late again for 20mins! I'm so damn mad that I didn't wait for her and left to the report venue. She said that she left home at 11.30am and Q up for deposit machine, that's why came late. I just get so mad, so pissed off by this kind of lousy excuses. Did she know that everytime because of her, I'll have to lie to Ginny that why we're late. Hell. When she reached the deposit machine and the Q is long, she shouldn't be Q-in then. She can have another choice that's to deposit after work what. I've never disliked her this much until today. S she...

1) Always late for meeting be it for work, or for our own group activities/outing.

2) Break her promise (She said she'll wait for me, but in e end, I'm e one who waited for her.

3) 's really childish [Super band pfm given us the ying guan bang but no connector she can keep saying "A, I want connector" for umpteen times which really annoys and irritates me]

4) walked away from you when she met her friend.

But of 'cuz is just a small matter and no ones is perfect. I just can't judge her a bad / lousy friend as she do have lots of good point which I pretty admire. So shall forget it and forgive her eh? Hope she'll change her bad point norhx. Haa...

Didn't stay throughout the superband performance, cuz wanna reach home early to rest. But look, is already 1.42am m still online. Hee, even mummy also stunned when I told her m going online before sleep. Tomorrow still have got to work. So sians, hope 'll 've a better sales. And most importantly I need to remember to get my timesheet signed by the watson manager. Otherwise I can't get my pay.

Alright off to sleep. Hope to start work early and end early so that I can finish up my homework as well as revision.

I hope I'll luv myself more

01:32

1) Always late for meeting be it for work, or for our own group activities/outing.

2) Break her promise (She said she'll wait for me, but in e end, I'm e one who waited for her.

3) 's really childish [Super band pfm given us the ying guan bang but no connector she can keep saying "A, I want connector" for umpteen times which really annoys and irritates me]

4) walked away from you when she met her friend.

Alright off to sleep. Hope to start work early and end early so that I can finish up my homework as well as revision.

I hope I'll luv myself more

01:32

04 August 2006

Actually today I won't be late for costing additional class one. Is because I went to photocopy kakis notes which they lent it to me for a few days. Felt very p.s to hold on to it for too long. Cuz afterall, I believe they do do revision over the weekend. =) So was about 20mins late for class. Hees =) I've never been punctual lol. Walked into the class room, good news for me. Whew! The Bursary... I gotten it!!! Cheerios! But think most likely 've to wait until Oct then can get that 600bucks! Lala... happy lol. At least I need not to worry about the next semester school fees.

Was taken aback when I was asking kakis for the answer. She given me the wrong answer and I was merely joking with her. Never expected answer like: "Then don't ask". Frankly speaking, pissed off. But she did apologised and I've to admit I've been too much or rather, the joke is not funny at all, but irritating. Haa, anyway... is over.

Cried during work. 'Cuz is like my customer is looking for the hair colour. So went into the store to look out for Jack,the Watson Manager. He told me there're some stock outside that just arrived and asked me to look for it myself. So I went to look for the aunty who always take note of the stock in and out...

Me: "Sorry aunty to disturb you. Jack said that my stock just arrived, can you pls show me where is it as my customer is looking for the hair colour which my shelve do not have."

Aunty: [Very fierce, irritated n loud tone] I don't know ley, I just came to work only. You don't ask me.

I felt so helpless at that point of time when my customer is looking for her hair colour and I couldn't find it just because I do not know whether there're still stock in the store or not. Asked the watson staff, all of them just feel so irritated and pissed off. But isn't that their job? I really do not understand and I don't see the sales over lot 1 is good. I do not know whats has exactly went wrong. I've no clue, no answer. Why are those popular colour like chocolate brown, apricot copper etc... don't even come a single unit? How m I going to hit target when m left with those can't have a good grey coverage for eg 8N? Why there're new stock of 10 over Passion Red when I don't even sell 1 of it so far? Why... is the problem lies on me or the problem lies on the consumer? Can anyone please tell me? When I can't hit sales, I can't sleep well. Even though Ginny don't say my sales is bad, I still think that I haven't been a good promoter yet. I can't convince customer well and I tend to wasted more than 2 chances per day by promoting for Loreal Excellence and Lucido Styling Wax. Sighs, why m I so dumb? Not dare to tell Ginny about the problem that I encounted. Cuz m afraid that she might find me problematic. There's a free gift that tag along with beauty labo, but run out of stock yet the cashier still promised the customer that they (watson) will take another free gift on behalf of her from us(hoyu). And now, Hoyu has ran out of that gift yet watson wanna hoyu die die to gif her something else. Hell... the watson manage refused to contact my manager yet kept calling me to call her (ginny) up. Hell. So stressed at that moment that I couldn't help, tears just flow down my cheeks. Called Doreen up and she did cheer me up a lil'. Thank pretty. Think was too pissed off my kakis word, that's why words were a lil' too harsh on pretty. But she didn't take it to heart, thx for her understd =)

Went back home pretty late today. Sigh... ;(

I hope I'll luv myself more

23:55

I was being asked to go Lot 1 ytd, so sians. I'm the only promoter there, no one to talk to and time flies so slow. Sales is even better over there? Doubt so, so what if I can sell more silk touch at Lot 1 but no prominous, no currensia, 1 speedy? Sighs... thing that makes me even more sad is what Ginny had said, "If sales here is even better, than you will stay here". Hell -.-" Liar, she's a fat liar. She said she'll locate me at JP, but she failed. And now, i'm willing to go there and she changed me to lot 1? Sigh...

Anyway, something worth the advance celebration. Taxation CAII yeterday was nothing new! Whew! Hees, careless mistake at the summary of capital allowance. Cuz Initial Allowance is not in the Y/A of 06 so I shouldn't include. Hees.. so I blanko out and gotten the same answer as KY n Federick. IBA schedule when checking answer with KY, kena frightened by him. Cuz his answer short of 10,000. Wa biang, if got attack sure faint lers. Hees... 99% getting 100 worx! Bravo ~ CA Ave for tax = 89 so that means end module exam I'll 've to get 78/100 in order to get A. =)

Now waiting for costing CAII result.

Tata, m off to school.

I hope I'll luv myself more

08:40

02 August 2006

Yesterday was having a very bad cold didn't sleep until this morning. Actually wanted to go for the lecture, but think I bathe too long and it kinda p.s to walk into the lecture hall when I'm already half an hour late eh? So stayed at home and do my revision for costing. But did wrongly. Hahas, but at least I know where is my mistake marhx. Lol...

There's this strong NS guy who came to sit next to me. Aww... can't you see that m FAT and m sitting in the 2 seaters cabin. So when you're so well built, you shouldn't sit next to me and make me feel so squeezy marhx, sigh. -.-" Came out from the train, suddenly headache.

School today, first and foremost Kakis Valencia scored full mark for both IAC CAII. Whew, applause. Well done girl, u're the one out of 40 eh? Accounting CA2 scored 100. Average 'd be 91/100*40 = 36.4. To get an A for end module grade, I should score about 75 but of course I don wanna just score for 75 but 100 . Taxation mock paper scored full mark, but doesn't means that I know everything eh? Is sort of by luck de. And I've top scorer sitting beside me, so checked my answer against his. That's why. Heh*2... all the best to me tomorrow. Gonna mug now. Take good kaiire everyone.

I hope I'll luv myself more

17:51

01 August 2006

Started off the day with a very foul mood and it affected the entire day of mine. Took bus 2 to school and again nearly knocked down by car. Mention about it was pretty weirdo as the driver don't horn at me when I stood right infront of his/her car. Hell, scared. Taxation Mock Paper cheated a lil'. Actually I didn't copy but just check against pal answer with my own. Yepp, we get the same answer, most probably 99% scoring full mark. Waha, how nice it's the real taxation CA paper. Costing lesson so fark up, think I haven't get a hang of it. More practise! Lunch break was pretty full, aww. Went to burger burst to try out the chicken chop w one toasted bread, salad, beans and nacho cheese dip. Wow, fabulous! Accounting lesson was freaking hell cold. M freezing. Published account was easy but I couldn't balance my BS. Checking answer tomorrow.

Went to fetch lil' niece, accompanied her to the playground for half an hour or so. Bathe her, do my laundry and accompained her to play. Feed her with rice yet she don't wanna eat. Half way playing with her, half way doing my revision. Until she drives me crazy and I left her, walked into the room. Until her mom came, that was about half an hour later. She cried, wow ~ heartache. But impossible for me to accompany everyday, every hour, every minute and every second especially m having CA week eh? Poor girl, Thursday - Sunday have to work, no time to accompany her. Perhaps, don't wanna break time go back home early and play with her bahs. Hees ~

Next Tuesday, National Day Celebration. Think most probably not going to school. School girls are planning to have an outing, heh*2... we're going to ECP again! Whew... this time round, Michelle will be learning bic whereas Hau and I more likely to be learning blading. Wow... thrilling. Looking fwd to this outing but again, I can't confirm yet. So sorry girls.

I hope I'll luv myself more

21:27